oh my gosh, i feel so horrible..
i feel depressed.
am i really spoiled? :(
okay. heres how it went.
i love my mom dearly.
and like, it just occured to me.
when my computer broke, i asked for a new one, i got it right away. { in 2 days. }
of course it is my money.. but she hasn't taken the cheque out, so i'll owe her.
but my mom tries so hard to like, do everything clean up, etc etc.
and whenever she askes me something i either reply with i dont care or i dont know
i love my mom so dearly, i hope she knows that
i want to be able to help more in real life more.
whenever i try, i struggle and eventually get bored / stop.
she says shes happy now, taking care of all of us annoying people.
i don't believe her.
she's a survivor, i just love her so much, i can't express it.
with having said that
shes not sad, shes content.
why do i feel so horrible?
guilt. guilt.
i still don't understand.
ugh.
♥ 9:13 PM