sometimes..

Saturday, March 14, 2009

party was fucking livee.
like seriously , it's so funny & cute LOL THE AUCTION PEOPPLE DIED. [:
-wearing mine- thanks for inviting me karthigaa ! (: (: (:
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as for persons.
i thought you were sweet and innocent.
i guessed wrong.

I LOVE YOU . :(
& he likes me. .. :\
i don't want to break his heart.
but i'm crushing already. :(

i'm not pretty faggots >__>

sigh, i haven't updated in a while
its just cause i'm lazy & i usually forget by the time i come home
i'm munching on a kit kat bar.
i hope i see them together .♥. -sigh- you're my best friend now, and you're all i got. i've met you when i was young & why do i feel like you're going to fall in love with me again
will anything change?

i don't want to be called a faggot if i reject.
and you hate on me for the rest of my life
i just want.. peace..
tranquility.
i guess karma hates that.
-sigh-

& i miss you boo. (8
i still remember those words to told me.
all the times you picked me up when i fell

there is nothing to be jealous of.
i'm here for you.
PLEASE don't wind up hating me :\
i feel like you are.
and you're going to be my worst enemy.
i'm not like that.
i resisted from hurting you so many times
and now i feel like now's the time
i feel your pain
PLEASE DON'T LET ME GO.

my foot is numb >__>;
god, why do you hate me?
like wtf?

am i sweet? or a total bitch.. ?
i hope i'm both. ^^

i have to admit.
i'm a little jealous,
especially with the influences around here.
however, it's only natural to be.
right?

I LOVE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH.
but my dignity says.
think of all the things they did to you :\

god, i don't know what to do anymore.
i can only carry on carrying a lie.
and honestly, when did I get influenced by relationships..
ESPECIALLY AT 12 YEARS OLD >__>
and.. two more days.

& to my ex-crush. one more, [: happy early birthday.

i think you hate me.
but i don't really care.
i am not a wallflower.
never have been.
i
am
not
a
drama queen.
never have been.
i
am
not
a
nerd. and never will be.

what the hell am I?

this shade of yellow is pretty. (:
mothers always misunderstand. sighh :(
apparently, i'm stupid and difficult, and you think it was useless to give birth to me.
AFTER ALL THAT, YOU CRACKED.
YOU FINALLY REVEALED THE SECRET THAT MAKES MY HEART
RIP UP, AND THIS I'M USELESS.
for the most fucking stupidest reason ever.
it's her > me.
& I don't help? she's fucking stupid. I don't have time for arguing.
i'm a debater, and i will not give up.
it will forever be a burden to my heart.
and now when i cry it comes back whenever negativity happens :S
don't get me wrong. i still love you.
you are still my life.
but i know you don't feel the same way :\
god,.

i will never give up on life.
ever.
keep cheering and hoping for me guys,
that i reach what i want to be.
i wish..
i would know what my wish would be.

goals -
learn how to swim by highschool
find out my true wish..
get contacts.
have.. a long and positive life.

for everyone whom reads my blog.
you now know, why i cry.
however, it isn't my fault.
for all you know, I could actually unintentionally cry
and want to stop.
please, let the words she said unwind :\

♥ 9:35 PM